Scream if you will. Quietly in a little room. With gritty flashing images of wind-chimes and blood. I don't like writing anymore. I don't like it. I used to write for an audience, and then it got tiring. I used to write for images and then it got boring. I hate the emptiness of my creativity. I hate that I can't think like I want to.
I want to scream.
Until my throat first itches because of the frequency, then scratches, then hurts. And then I want to go hoarse and lose my voice. I want my lungs to hurt so much that I stop feeling the need to express myself. I hope the blinding pain will blank it all out. I am being escapist. So fuck you. Fuck you all. Don't even try to protect me or say something about this because I don't want anybody to understand.
I just want to scream.
6 comments:
Its ok to be escapist.
Dont ever write for an audience.
The best writing comes out when you want to scream but you can't. When you want to run away but you can't.
I like the way you write. Scream and tear everything apart. Throw things.
kini,
after long time i am reading ur blog so...I will definitely comment on it...........
WE will Scream together :)
Honestly though, I disagree - I think once you have a blog you're automatically writing for an audience. Its that exhibitionist side of us or maybe just that side that wants to reach out, show someone whats happening with you. And besides, your audience is obviously standing, waiting, watching. Go ahead, scream your heart out.
;p
Find a cliff or a hillside.
@ten am: Yea it is like that, once you have a blog. But then sometimes you write when you just have to write. Just to vent. Like verbal vomit. And at the end of it you feel so much better. Kinda relieved.
Dei!!!
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